(To join Blog Your Blessings Sunday, and get your name on the blogroll, click on the banner above and follow the simple instructions)This has been a terrible week...a terrible month, come to think of it.
Let me try and list down all the things that went wrong this month :
If you have had the patience to read this post till here, you might be wondering : Where is the blessing?
You have to look no further. The blessing, for me, lies in the fact that after thinking about the problems that I am facing, I have come to the conclusion, that I am responsible for all my problems, and for now, it is in my power to do something about them. What more can a guy ask for?
Let me try and list down all the things that went wrong this month :
- November is the month of NaNoWriMo. And when I began this year I felt like a pro; I felt I would be able to do it easily. I had a story in mind, and all I had to do was to get it on paper. It did not happen like that. It is the 25th day of November, and all I have is about 10,000 words. My feelings - I feel miserable!
- On November 18, I was to appear for an exam. An exam that I knew about months in advance, and one that I thought I could take and do well at. But, at the very last moment, I decided to not take the exam. Reason - I did not want to fail.
- On November 25, that is today, I was to attend my best friend's wedding. A friend, who was my room mate for more than an year when I was in college. I should have been there, and I am not, even though I had bought tickets to go to his town for the wedding almost months in advance. My feelings - I feel miserable.
- While I am here, telling you about the things that went wrong, or are going wrong, even as I type this, I guess I should also say a word or two about my love life. Well, actually there is nothing to say, as even I don't know what is going on with that part of my life. But something does not feel alright! Though, one good thing here is that, because of the state of my mind, I was looking for some songs to suit the mood, and came across songs by Jim Croce, and I am loving them.
- I haven't come to the end of my list of woes yet. I had to submit the assignments for a course in English Literature this month and guess what? I haven't even started doing them. This particular course has 8 papers, and I have passed seven of them, and only this one is left, but if I don't get it done by June all of that would have been a waste. So, well, let us wait and see what happens with that.
- On top of that, things at work have been hectic and busy as never before. In fact I was to go to work even today, on a Sunday, but I have decided to take a break and not go today. Need to recharge, nay replace, my batteries. The old ones seem to have lost their juice.
If you have had the patience to read this post till here, you might be wondering : Where is the blessing?
You have to look no further. The blessing, for me, lies in the fact that after thinking about the problems that I am facing, I have come to the conclusion, that I am responsible for all my problems, and for now, it is in my power to do something about them. What more can a guy ask for?
7 comments:
Neo,
My heart goes out to you! I have been there, and in some ways am there, with you.
There's nothing on that list that can't be repaired.
NaNoWriMo? I bailed before I began. You're 10,000 words ahead of where you were 25 short days ago. Very cool. You're moving, and in a write direction (sorry about that lame pun)!
So long as you're listening to Jim Croce and not Harry Chapin, there's still hope!
God bless. Good luck.
I say the positive attitude you still have after 'all that" is your blessing! Remember, when you think you are down, someone else in the world probably has it worse. My prayers that things get on the right track for you again and multiple blessings will be forthcoming.
I had planned to join that NaNoWriMo challenge but I couldn't get the blogroll to work to sign up so I just wrote each day in my blog and didn't try writing the goal of a book. There's always next year for the goal for you -- besides, look how much you did accomplish this time! Ü AND November isn't over yet. . .
(((((hugs from Canada)))))
First off... I'm noticing NaNoWriMo has put MORE people into a depressional funk than almost anything circulating through the blogsphere... I wonder if the originators "see" that???
Other than that, I'm glad to see that you are looking at things and taking ownership of them! I'm sure you'll have a plan of action soonly!
You are 10,000 words better off than I am.
You are also in control of your issues now instead of the other way around - and that is a great blessing indeed.
Happy BYB Sunday - I hope next week is better for you.
At least you tried the NaNoWriMo... I didn't even bother starting this year.
I love Jim Croce!
Neo...I TOTALLY know the feeling of overwhelm. My "doing-too-much" got me so sick I had zero choice but to slow down! I discovered a lot of new truths about myself in this process and have started a completely new chapter in my life in sooo many ways.
Listen to the messages you're getting. Trust me. Happy BYB Sunday!
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